susitaival

I thought it was about time for me to make a decent entry here. I know I know I should try to update this a bit more often but I just don’t seem to get it done.
                               
I spent the weekend at my dad’s. It was so awful to return to the city last night as I just wanted to stay in the village forever. (Note for those of you who are not familiar with my history. I am originally from a very tiny village of H and it is still the place where I want to be the most even though I have lived in the city for the past six years.) Yesterday was a stormy day, a very stormy day. I woke up early and took a long walk along the coast and in the forest. I stayed there for over two hours just enjoying the wind and stormy sea. I sat on a rock and smoked cigarettes and hoped that the time would stop. I hoped that I could just stay there forever. I felt as if I could cry when I finally left and drove towards the city… While I walked around the tiny village, I collected a huge amount of leaves, pebbles, pieces of wood and all little nice stuff that caught my eye. Now I have my balcony full of stuff, leaves are being pressed under pieces of my old desk, pieces of wood being dried in my oven (!!!! Yes, I use my oven for everything else but not cooking food) … I will use it all in some future craft projects.
                                         
I love autumn, I just love it. I wish it would be windy every day and that it would rain forever. I wish autumn and winter would be the only seasons. Where the hell do I need summer when the days are too hot for doing anything, the sun is too bright, nights are too bright for sleeping, woolly socks are too thick to wear. I wouldn’t mind if there were no summers.
                                          
At the moment I am at school. Gosh, how I hate it. I have been just reading a book, taking a quick look at the Macromedia Dreamweaver here and there but not really concentrating on what the teacher is talking about. I just can’t be bothered. This school is such a pain in my ass; I just want to get rid of this. I have this beating headache and I can’t wait to get back home and just go to sleep. Most of the time I am just too tired to do anything and I spent the vast amount of my time in bed. Once again my most productive hours are the early morning hours. I begin to feel tired sometime around 10 a.m. and after that I am half-sleep the rest of the day. I just sleep and read, I sleep for a couple of hours and then read for a couple of hours and then sleep again and so on. I get up around 3-4 in the morning and then I write and do all kinds of stuff. And then I feel almost ok. I have become more and more of a night owl during the past couple of years. Now my days are just something I have to get through in order to be able to live and be alive at night.

That’s all folks.  

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